Monday, February 23, 2009 . 5:48 PM
As usual, i blog after yet another week -.- i wanted to blog on many occasions.but it just didn't happen -.- and the reason why i am able to blog now is because i really can't take it anymore.sigh.the upcoming manning is just taking its toll on me!initially thought that even with the major exercise last sat-sun(there was full-equipping with ammo,a lot of ministers and big shots were there), or HHQ's manning(sure activate one) after mine, that mine manning would be relatively safe.or at least that was what i thought -.- sigh.looks like the inevitable is going happen this Saturday.lots of logistics issue have not been solved as of today.blah.hope it all goes well if activated.*pray that it would not activate please~~~~~* T.Tam trying my best to stay calm.after all, this is mine first manning, though mistakes can be make,it should not be an excuse for any screw ups.just mine luck i guess o.0 peter was kind of stressing me the past week.but during the walk the ground just now, he was rather alright.perhaps he finally realized that i am still a newbie and this is mine first activation.sigh.really want to get things right.haven't tell him a lot of bad news.think he will break down and shoot tens and thousands of extras for me =.=!!peter was kind of stressing me the past week.but during the walk the ground just now, he was rather alright.perhaps he finally realized that i am still a newbie and this is mine first activation.sigh.really want to get things right.haven't tell him a lot of bad news.think he will break down and shoot tens and thousands of extras for me =.=!!
so as written, that was how my weekdays last week passed.stressful -.- sigh.the weekend was better.or the best days of that week.(it will soon be for every week because we are staying in soon again ><) however, had a bad fall on Saturday, bruises on both mine knees, a huge red patch on mine left shin.it hurts o.0 wore those 3/4 shorts that evening for dinner, the edge of the shorts kept slamming on mine wound.it hurt seriously bad.SO PAIN T.T so i wore long jean(to celebrate mine AH GONG's BIRTHDAY on Sunday evening) for a dinner.the material got stuck to mine wound.it hurt even more.SO PAIN PAIN PAIN ='(
have you ever thought of ending your life in any point of time?i did.
its funny to think about it.it was during secondary one.i just move into mine new place(and i have been here for 8years already -.-) so new home new environment new surrounding new school new faces new subjects.
its bad enough for an introvert like me to move to a new environment, but imagine going to a new school with totally no one that you will know.that sucks =.= moreover, from the basic 4 subjects that we take in primary, we were then required to take a total of TEN subjects.took me quite awhile to settle down, but before that, i almost did the unthinkable.
i had actually planned everything.written somethink that you would refer to as a will.plotted a date.and actually sent out messages(the last one i supposed?) to my friends.haha.what a joke man o.0 in the end i just cried it out and grind through.
mine willpower(i have to admit) is freaking low.almost invisible.i broke down several times in the army itself, during bmt, sispec etc.but luckily i had mine section mates who 熬过 with me.and of course her.who was always that for me.who really saw the weaken sight of me.really greatful to her.going through another stage of mine NS life, another journey towards mine ORD.hope that i can survive it through.but let me survive through this coming week first. zz
wonder.wonder when change for the better.be it mine NS life, mine love life, mine whatever life that i am going through.has all the fun moments zoom past?or has it taken a break because of NS?or was it just a preview and the best is yet to come?life is so full of uncertainties.do cherish whoever you have.your family.your friends.your girlfriends/boyfriends.your pet.everyone.goodluck everyone.i sincerely pray from the bottom of mine heart, that you will get what you wish for, and hopefully it will bring joy, laughter and happiness to each and everyone of you =) cherish your loved ones.remember ;)..
