Monday, February 23, 2009 . 5:48 PM
As usual, i blog after yet another week -.- i wanted to blog on many occasions.but it just didn't happen -.- and the reason why i am able to blog now is because i really can't take it anymore.sigh.the upcoming manning is just taking its toll on me!initially thought that even with the major exercise last sat-sun(there was full-equipping with ammo,a lot of ministers and big shots were there), or HHQ's manning(sure activate one) after mine, that mine manning would be relatively safe.or at least that was what i thought -.- sigh.looks like the inevitable is going happen this Saturday.lots of logistics issue have not been solved as of today.blah.hope it all goes well if activated.*pray that it would not activate please~~~~~* T.Tam trying my best to stay calm.after all, this is mine first manning, though mistakes can be make,it should not be an excuse for any screw ups.just mine luck i guess o.0 peter was kind of stressing me the past week.but during the walk the ground just now, he was rather alright.perhaps he finally realized that i am still a newbie and this is mine first activation.sigh.really want to get things right.haven't tell him a lot of bad news.think he will break down and shoot tens and thousands of extras for me =.=!!peter was kind of stressing me the past week.but during the walk the ground just now, he was rather alright.perhaps he finally realized that i am still a newbie and this is mine first activation.sigh.really want to get things right.haven't tell him a lot of bad news.think he will break down and shoot tens and thousands of extras for me =.=!!
so as written, that was how my weekdays last week passed.stressful -.- sigh.the weekend was better.or the best days of that week.(it will soon be for every week because we are staying in soon again ><) however, had a bad fall on Saturday, bruises on both mine knees, a huge red patch on mine left shin.it hurts o.0 wore those 3/4 shorts that evening for dinner, the edge of the shorts kept slamming on mine wound.it hurt seriously bad.SO PAIN T.T so i wore long jean(to celebrate mine AH GONG's BIRTHDAY on Sunday evening) for a dinner.the material got stuck to mine wound.it hurt even more.SO PAIN PAIN PAIN ='(
have you ever thought of ending your life in any point of time?i did.
its funny to think about it.it was during secondary one.i just move into mine new place(and i have been here for 8years already -.-) so new home new environment new surrounding new school new faces new subjects.
its bad enough for an introvert like me to move to a new environment, but imagine going to a new school with totally no one that you will know.that sucks =.= moreover, from the basic 4 subjects that we take in primary, we were then required to take a total of TEN subjects.took me quite awhile to settle down, but before that, i almost did the unthinkable.
i had actually planned everything.written somethink that you would refer to as a will.plotted a date.and actually sent out messages(the last one i supposed?) to my friends.haha.what a joke man o.0 in the end i just cried it out and grind through.
mine willpower(i have to admit) is freaking low.almost invisible.i broke down several times in the army itself, during bmt, sispec etc.but luckily i had mine section mates who 熬过 with me.and of course her.who was always that for me.who really saw the weaken sight of me.really greatful to her.going through another stage of mine NS life, another journey towards mine ORD.hope that i can survive it through.but let me survive through this coming week first. zz
wonder.wonder when change for the better.be it mine NS life, mine love life, mine whatever life that i am going through.has all the fun moments zoom past?or has it taken a break because of NS?or was it just a preview and the best is yet to come?life is so full of uncertainties.do cherish whoever you have.your family.your friends.your girlfriends/boyfriends.your pet.everyone.goodluck everyone.i sincerely pray from the bottom of mine heart, that you will get what you wish for, and hopefully it will bring joy, laughter and happiness to each and everyone of you =) cherish your loved ones.remember ;)..
Sunday, February 15, 2009 . 1:15 AM
its valentine's day. wishing all couples out there a happy valentine's day x)valentine's has no meaning for me this year.stayed at home this whole day.actually had plans to go catch a movie with mine army mates.but it was fully booked.so i stayed at home xD
parents went m'sia.bro went out.practically was alone at home.luckily i had the television and the computer =0
was watching a 新光二班的特别节目, talked about the beginning to the end of the competition.and of course, i saw mine favourite 梁文音！！shes just the best lo! xD haha.lost her parents,left only her elder sister and younger brother.but it made her stronger.tougher.more mature as well.seeing her and the rest of the contestants,how they struggled through.how they persevere through as well as toughen themselves up.sometimes i wish that i could get the fame that they get.the 知名度 xP hehe.should be fun xD..but better still.i wish i could be as tough.as strong as them.or even just half of their toughness.obviously that because i'm weak.very weak..=(
every week will be a tough week for me.as mine workload would only rise or stay constant.maybe after a few months then it would subside?i don't know ><>
university application window is currently open again.tried this last year but i couldn't get in.partially because i was lazy and didn't really applied properly.everythink was last minute ><>
anyway.downloaded 梁文音 new song 最幸福的事a few days ago.its a rather sad song.but of course its nice because its from 文音.=) haha !!
i miss those times when there was someone there for me.no matter who that person was.i been through it three times.but obviously there was no such think as a happy ending.sad to say.no one can blame them.i don't.i blame mineself.though there were happy moments.but the tragic moments definitely outweighs the happy ones.how long will this go on?on a sad and ending note..i leave you with the chorus of 梁文音 - 最幸福的事
我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事
Thursday, February 5, 2009 . 7:20 PM
ahhhh..for some reason.i am kind of addicted to coke this few days.been drinking it.feels great man! x)..do you like to drink coke? xD..currently in the ops room blogging.haha.there's an on-going armour cny celebration behind me at the car park.listening to them singing new year songs ><><) damn funny!!
yesterday was really a very very hectic day for me >< wo =".=""><>
actually had a lot to blog. but now got no inspiration ah. next time shall not procastinate de le. haha!! hope the weekend would be perfect for all of you. HAVE A GREAT WEEK AHEAD!!
Sunday, February 1, 2009 . 6:43 PM
ah.so long never blog le.haha.maybe not that long.just erm..1,2,3,4, FIVE days.haha!back to army life is so so so boring >< in =".="">
then on thursday, had steamboat dinner with ahma,fion,adeline,si chung and ji xiang at ahma's place in punggol.could have been there earlier if not for the fact that maj chua threw sai kang at joel and me ><><><
ate breakfast with sammy then went home de le.had a relatively routine saturday.played mahjong in the afternoon(after finally finding enough people, as well as knowing that there was no activation for that day =D) then slack around before another fairprice gathering at a restaurant near mine place.i actually walked to the restaurant, found them at the table, said 'hi' then went back home.cause i left mine phone at home!haha!!the gathering was kinda cool.met ms sng, sze liang, jeremy, pohlan.reminded mine time at TBRU few years back!haha!!had some nice chats with jeremy,sze liang and ms sng.haha.ms sng is still as pretty as ever =P.the dinner was alright but it was filling.we were all very full ><>< (had bad memories with sand flies during mine SISPEC time at NEO TIEW!!!) so after maybe another half hour? we all went back.haha.and of course i reached home in a matter of minutes.glued mineself to the football channel on television.haha!man utd won x)..
went for a movie this Sunday afternoon with mine gang =) watched jack neo's love matters.and i finally knew why it was rated NC-16.haha.its rather ok to me ah.still watchable.haha.but the crew at GV Tiong sucks.they asked us for our IDs >< dg ek yy mars and me definitely over 16 le la.but the auntie act pro.she herself was busy talking with the other crews.they let us in le.we walking in to the theatre le then she there shouting.zzz.definitely not good service at all!!anyway it was a nice movie.haha.a typical jack neo comedy.was laughing our ass out.haha. '口交' and '肛交' !! haha!! but the malaysian acent was abit too much la.haha.went for a 10min haircut after that.then headed home de le x)..
maybe its cause of mine wrong doings that i can only watch.maybe thats why i'm alone.lonely..
