Tuesday, January 27, 2009 . 11:07 PM

haha.today is the second day of the NIU year.大家过的好吗？祝大家牛年发发发！heex..surprising, i'm not hungry right now even though i only ate breakfast.reason why i didn't eat?perhaps i was just too lazy xD..

had macdonald's for breakfast.then went out to bai nian.went to my nanny's place.haha.stayed there for 1,2 hour(s) before my family went back home cause there was a lion dance troupe coming.you should try staying indoors while they are in your flat >< style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">DEAFENING! -.-

then mine grandparents and aunts came.kind of a standard custom every new year.they would come over on the 2nd day and the ten-odd of us would go for a movie, a 贺岁电影.had wanted to watch jack neo's love matters(辛福万岁) but was NC-16, which meant that my 2 young cousins couldn't watch it -.- and so we had to make do with fann & chris's the wedding game(大喜事). it was rather funny to me and its rather nice.couples should really go watch.its kind of lovey-dovey.haha.don't know why.just by watching it makes me thing and feel a lot >< wonderful =")..

well.before the movie at 4:45pm, i still managed to play 1 round of mahjong with mine uncle, aunt and ah gong.won 4dollars.haha.also the reason why i didn't eat lunch xD
then after the movie the whole lot of us went back to my place again, and the second round of mahjong began(hence i didn't eat dinner -.-") haha.well.i was lucky and i won 30dollars!woots!haha.i followed those 赌神 on those mahjong movies and spoke to the tiles =P and i was lucky to win!haha.自摸 on quite a number of occasions.is your luck as good as mine?

going back to camp tomorrow after a four days break.feel damn sian ah! >< 4days of civilian life is really shiok ah! i can't wait to ord =D..

whenever 陈靓瑄 is on tv.i will unwittingly think of you.to be honest.she does look like you from some angles(or you look like her from some angles ><) and i...i feel sad?it really reminds me of the past when we were together.of course is the happy moments =).if mine life was to replay itself.i wouldn't choose to let you go.really regretted.sigh.i've let you down.know i really hurt you badly.still hope that you are doing alright.i do not ask for your forgiveness as i don't deserve to be forgiven.sorry.you really made me feel special.made me feel that you were the one for me.just like fann and chris, that we would be together.sigh.its me who blow up this beautiful relationship.its me who destroyed your faith in love.sigh.i'm really sorry.hope that life still goes on for you.hope that you can find someone who would cherish you longer unlike me..

is it truly possible to love someone forever and ever?is it that hard to fulfill that?thrice..thrice..sigh.how many more would i let go?how many more would i hurt?what will my fate be like?is my love life destined to be like this?blah T.T

Sunday, January 25, 2009 . 2:20 PM

恭喜发财！新年快乐！happy CNY!!! haha.been some time since i blog.actually only 5days.haha.but was really too lazy to blog la >< style="color: rgb(153, 51, 0);">PANDA WONG! haha!he's one of the spec and he 'pui' with the mwo, so that we can stay out.haha.and he was to be known as panda wong ever since i sent the email out to everyone that we were staying out.haha.everyone still calls him panda wong x)..

well.finished covering mine sir's shyt on Wednesday.his lack of commitment worries.haha.just hope i and sammy 熬得过去.still gt 41more weekends after this festive weekend xD..

Thursday was a slack day.felt like Christmas/new year's eve because of the things that we did in the office.Facebook, magic tricks,budget speech, sleep was the agenda for that day. basically we were all waiting to book out cause we are stay-out personals!! Cool!! xD..

the celebrations on Friday was crappy. what run of the ox, what bingo, especially THREE!! rounds of bingo. it was really crappy. think chief was bored by it.haha!! became mr derek's guide round redhill and bishan cause he was looking to apply for a online taxi training tinky. went redhill and we were directed to sin ming. then we went to the wrong place twice >< jialat sia.and when we finally gt to the correct place on the 4th try.the clerk there told him this:

clerk: you see, the doc didn't check the box(whether you are fit or unfit)
derek: but i'm fit, the doc also said that
clerk: i know you tell me that you are fit, but i'm not the doc, i can't just check the 'you are fit' box
derek: so what am i supposed to do now?
clerk: well, you have to go back to the doc and get him to check the box, then come back to register again
derek: *faints*

so that was what happened.and bacause of it.i was late for the lunch appointment at orchard.really had to rush down as i was pretty late ><>< the duck meat was pretty alright but the rice was certainly terrible -.- done mine thumbprint and left for kino.

was kind of lucky.found new series of kindaichi, tsubasa and kekkaishi. but most importantly i found mine long awaited 量.文音 by 梁文音.been waiting for it for months ><>i'm scouting for her new album and merchandises of 海角七号 x)..

anyway.happy CNY again to all for you out there.hope that all your wishes will come true in this new lunar year x)..hope that you will get many many angbaos, then you can treat me xD..

Tuesday, January 20, 2009 . 6:53 PM

argh >< style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">i hate it!! >< style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">BOO!!cant book out today cause its a stay in day.blah.so bored in camp.want to go back to bunk, take off mine boots and relax on the bed xP heex!feeling tired as well.one big shit comes after another >< office politics.sigh.

cny's round the corner.the festive atmosphere is just not there.haha.maybe cause it will be a rather lonely cny this time round?in fact.my life now is rather empty o.0

Monday, January 19, 2009 . 7:58 PM

hey.to all bloggers out there.do you all know if you are able to post/load songs onto the blogs based on your preference?like a online media player or i tunes on the blog?haha.drop me the details on mine tagboard if you can help me with this xD..

today is an exhausting day.i am really reallY realLY reaLLY reALLY rEALLY REALLY SHAG!been running non stop since 7 in the morning.to set up the areas.to ensure everything runs smoothly.really is tiring.luckily whole the office to help me.afterall.this was a bomb given that we knew about this only last wednesday evening.and even andrew said that he was surprised that everything turned out so smoothly given the (really really)short notice.thanks all who helped in one way or another.know that this is what we do all the time o.0 but to really finish this without any problem is great,totally awesome!! x)..

been thinking about what i plan to do after i ord.haha.though i know its kind of early to start thinking?espically when i still have 10more months(or 293 days as of now) to ord.not very sure what course i would like or want to take now.doubt i will ever be sure what course i would like to take.haha.thats the problem with me.i can never make up mine mind.or i could never decide on my own.sigh.
i was told that i could become an agent!haha!the pay does sound attractive and most of my fears as an agent were quite well answered.and i am quite tempted to try my luck?haha.having fun's the motto xD..

weekends are just weekends.the only special thing about weekends is that i don't have to be in my uniform(unless on duty ><) anyway.thanks ber for your basic theory handbook/onlinetest account.haven't properly thank you yet.haha.
chinese new year is around the corner!!woot!!long weekends are so cool!!haha.but what i like most is the gatherings and stuffs.doesn't matter if its with your family,relatives or friends.its just the reason to get together and celebrate.haha.the feeling is just so homely =P..

i tried.i cried.i did my best.but apparently it was still not enough..

Wednesday, January 14, 2009 . 9:02 PM

cool.got news that we have to shift out of our bunks by next Friday.so we will be staying out still x) heex..had a rather ok 1st 3/4 of the day.work was moving rather smoothly till the last 1/4, close to book out(or rather nights out).had a huge bomb dropped on mine mob line.SIAN!luckily i got sammy and joan.they rushed all the backup issue that we can get.cant fault them anything(should fault mine aso xD muahaha..).hope everything can be solved tomorrow.if not get f**ked by him again.BOO!

still abit blur about how this works.though i added a tagboard.i still don't know how to get the comment part out.or get the title of mine post to display itself.haha.

life is like a piano.what you get out of it depends on how you play it.

on and on the pain goes on.and it just wouldn't die.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009 . 6:19 PM

supposedly today, or rather tonight was our last night in bunk.cause we had to move out of our bunks and become 'stay-out personals' for awhile.but sadly.our wish could not be fulfilled.BOO!

hence here i am, using the internet in my office after office hours while the rest of the stay in personals are eating.didn't join them as i didn't want to go and eat.haha.told mdm that '我吃facebook长大' haha.anyway.just played 'spot the difference' with enoch,wong,linus,edmond,elon.was so funny.our eyes seriously couldn't take it.the pictures were just so SMALL!but we had fun and couldn't carry on cause there was a limit to 2pics per day only.BOO!then i showed them 'geo challenge' EDMOND OWNED MAN!WTF!he knew like almost every place in the world.SCARY SHIT!but its cool.haha.

joanathan knew about my blog.damn.it was supposed to be a SECRET! oh well x)..

don't know what happen to the comment portion for each post.don't know how to fix it.haha.tried to add a tagboard.realised i used 1 for mine last blogspot.need to scout for another type/brand/host.haha.

saying sorry for what i have done does not diminish the fact that i have hurt you all.never did i want to/think of/thought of toying with your love.know what i say now will not change the outcome of anythink.or the hatred all you all have towards me.sometimes i do regret.though i do not regret any of mine relationship as i really put effort in it(but towards the end..sigh).but if given another chance.i would rather none of these relationship occurred.only because i know thinks will still turn out the same way in one way or another.sigh.why does this happen is a problem.i never knew and still don't know why this happens.i guess its fate?really sorry to have put your lives in turmoil.sadness.betrayal.sorry.

Monday, January 12, 2009 . 11:02 PM

setting up this blog was troublesome.haha.i totally forgotten how to deal with the scripts and template.took me one whole afternoon to figure it out.haha.but partially was because i was scared to get caught(we ain't really allowed to use the internet during office hours, but who cares; army motto: do whatever you want but don't get caught ;) ).however, i'm still stuck with the tagboard, and some music stuffs which i cant really figure out.haha.don't worry though, when its done, it will be a BANG!

last sat(100109), i was a ONE - YEAR soldier!!haha.happy eh x).

anyway, went to do some pre-cny shopping with deng(aka huishan aks wilson). went city hall cause thats where he wanted to go.i, as usual had no opinion where to go -.- walked quite long actually.from raffles city shopping to suntec to marina sq. and back to suntec.been hoping to get this very very nice 2piece(actually is 1piece but looks like 2piece de) shirt which i've been eyeing since x'mas. been searching high and low for it but to no avail =(. walked suntec's and marina's G2000 and it was no where to be found.sadded.had to make do with a similar piece, which was also from G2000.haha.and didn't bother to try(as mentioned by deng in his blog) cause i was just plain lazy >< wanted another shirt from bodynits but it totally slipped off mine mind.only till the end when i was leaving suntec then i remembered that i wanted the shirt.blah.hope i can still buy it some other time.bought 2jeans at levis for 99.tried only 1 then just take another of the same size but different design.haha.can't really be bothered about such thinks.either i'm too 'bochap' or just plain lazy ^^

watched the man u vs chelsea match last night.great job man utd x) had to admit, chelsea were far below par and saf's tactics and selection made a great difference.neville was stable at right back, never really pushing forward to support the attack, but just to hold the line for the defence.and giggs really shamed the whole chelsea midfield with his relentless runs.he was incredible.thought carrick would start along side fletcher.haha.thumbs up to saf and man utd x)..

now that i'm alone most of the time, i tend to think back to what i've done.to my life.to my family.to my friends.to my relative.to my loved ones.to those who had loved me.to those who i had loved.

saddness,regret,heartache,heartbreak,remorse,self-reproach and the list goes on and on..


ah.finally back to blogging again after like 2years.haha.

don't know why.just got this feeling to want to blog again ba.maybe its because i feel its a good way to say out what i want to say instead of keeping it to myself.has been a long 2008.many things happened.sad or happy.small or big.all sorts and all kind.haha.

will slowly blog about alot things i guess.though now doing duty in the ops room of mine camp.but mine eyes are more fixed to the screen showing 'transporter 2'.haha.

well.will carry on with what i want to say soon.haha.

signing off..